Lets Be Fighters

“Sometimes the only thing you can do is FIGHT your way out!”

Most of the time, we find ourselves in the mindset or head space of defeat.

There are so many things happening around us that we find it hard to sit down, know that we are enough and rest in the fact that everything is in God’s hands. Also, if you’re like me? You get upset sometimes when things aren’t so perfect as you would expect for them to be.

Yeah, most of you feel me. Especially if you’re that creative perfectionist. Honesty, I feel bad for perfectionist and well, that also means that I feel bad for myself then. As a perfectionist, we hope and pray that we can be our very best to the point where others aren’t able to see a thing out of place. However, we fail to understand that we aren’t perfect. I mean, we know that we aren’t but why is it that we continue to strive towards making everything our absolute best? Then, there’s the question of…”Why not?”.

Let me talk to you. No longer about perfectionist characteristics but more so about- how to fight when you get frustrated or sad through though moments. Moments when you don’t feel squeaky clean and clear of speckles that life throws at us from time to time.

We’ve all been there.

We’ve all been in the head space of, “What am I doing and why aren’t I getting anywhere?” If anything, all of this goes back to producing a positive head space within ourselves. Yet, there will be days when the Devil tries to push thoughts into our heads like, “You aren’t good enough. You won’t make it. You’re a joke…etc.” Keep in mind that those things aren’t WHO you are because God created you to be a winner. You ARE a winner and you always will be. Like it says in the Bible, everything will work out for those who love the Lord. No matter what route you take, God will always cause things to work our in your favor and for your good. Rest in that. Smile with that in your heart and on your mind. You’re loved. Forever and ever you will be/are loved by God.

Let me tell you a story about the day I had to fight my way through a negative emotions that were draining me. This is simply the reason why I named this little entry, “Lets Be Fighters”.

One day, I had this recurring thought that wasn’t true about myself and that day, something finally clicked in my head. I was like, “What am I doing? Am I really allowing myself to get upset or sad about this? I can’t allow the Devil to throw these negative thoughts into my head because I am a winner. Along with that, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me,” (That’s another important thing to do during your fight. SPEAK the word over your life. SPEAK! Don’t whisper or silently say it in your head. SPEAK IT OVER YOURSELF. OUT LOUD!)

Anyways, back to the story. It’s important to realize that you don’t have to stay in a negative head space. Like my favorite, Cheryl “Pepsii” Riley said in her song, “You can CHOOSE to be happy!” I heard that song (Still Believe in Love) for the hundredth time and, I never understood it until that day. I understood that we get to choose to be happy and not allow anything to get into the way of our happiness. Besides, God gives us a choice on the daily. Why not choose to be happy, trust him and allow him to take over? However, sometimes that’s easier said than done.

Another thing I learned that day is that sometimes you have to fight your way through things in life. Not only things in life but moments when your head becomes filled with negative thoughts. We’re all humans and so, its bound to happen to us one of these day. Yet, FEAR NOT! I found a secret.

The secret is to get up and punch against those negative thoughts. That day, I turned on the song, “Let Me Go” By Deitrick Haddon and I started boxing with the air. I envisioned that every punch I made, hit away all the doubts and anxiety. I went hard! I yelled and screamed that I was gonna come OUT of this mindset of sadness. After the song ended, I felt like I had back what was rightfully mines. Happiness.

Now look, you’re probably looking at this screen saying, “Punching air?” Uh, yeah but what you’re really doing is fighting away all the things that aren’t on your life. The devil can make you feel this way or make you think that but you don’t have to accept them. YOU DON’T! Absolutely not. Being a Theatre major, I come up with many concepts to get myself through things. I don’t know why but I do.

In the end, it got me through and so, the next time I have a moment as such, I’ll play the song get to speaking over my life. You don’t have to be afraid to fight back. Like it says in the bible, you could tell this mountain to move and it will do just that. However, you have to believe with all your heart and it will be done.

There are many mountains in our lives that are needed to be moved. Mountains of anxiety, resentment, loneliness and etc. Guess what though? They don’t have to be there because we have a CHOICE to be happy. We have the ability to tell our problems to get up and LEAVE. They can’t stay here.

So, here we are. What are you gonna do today? If anything, take my advice. Fight and scream at your mountains. Your mountains can’t stay there but that’s only if you don’t allow them to.

Lets pray (Outloud): Lord, thank you for blessing me. Thank you for giving me the ability to tell my mountains to leave! I also pray that Holy Boldness will jump upon my life and fill me up to where I can fight during the moments when its most hard. Yet, I know that you have my back. And I thank you for that, God. I am more than a conquer and a winner in Jesus’ name. Give me he strength to fight! Amen.

Deitrick Haddon: Let Me Go- https://youtu.be/KS_NRbgZrK8

When A Passion Calls

“Whenever people ask me what my major is, I simply hold my head up with humble confidence and say, “I am a Theatre major.” – Essence Simon’e

August of 2018: I started my freshman year at The University of Central Arkansas. I made my mind up in the ninth grade that I was gonna major in Biology and minor in Theatre. All my life, I heard that you are only able to succeed in life if you were to get a “realistic” major and push your dreams to the side as a hobby. So, I decided that I was gonna do that. However, after my first two months in college, I noticed that I wasn’t happy with where I was. I felt like my heart yearned for something else. Something that only God knew about and that’s why I brought it to him. I looked around and I thought to myself, “Essence, is Biology really something that you want to do?”

God constantly put my dreams on my heart and it seemed as if he even knew that I wasn’t happy. He was right. I wasn’t happy. So, I became a person with an undecided major and for a whole month, I felt like I was confused and off track. When it comes to being still in Gods presence and having to wait on him? Well, It wont be an easy road. Some days I asked God, “When are you gonna give me a sign?” I felt like I didn’t know what I was gonna do with my life because so many people around me knew what major they were gonna continue on with. Then, there was me. I knew I wasn’t the only undecided major on campus but I didn’t have patience with God. However, he came through for me. I knew he would because he has and will NEVER let me down.

God brought it to me through many signs that theatre was meant for me. Not only did he bring it to me but he also gave me peace about it. I had peace and I knew that if I didn’t have peace about it? Well, that meant that it wasn’t the right idea. However, he gave it to me.

So, after God gave me my answer, I went straight to my adviser and changed it. I was scared because I didn’t know how I was gonna get through this. I didn’t know how I was gonna be successful but God then told me, “I’ll take care of you. I am here for you. You will succeed!” Am I the only one who hears God whenever I need guidance? Come one now! He is very much alive!

Anyways, after I changed my major, I felt so much happiness come upon me and my life.

“God knows what he’s doing!” -David Stewart (One of the best phone calls I’ve ever had in my life lol)

The thing is, God will lead us in the direction we have to go in because we all have a purpose. I don’t know what I’m gonna do with this degree but I do know that I am an active dreamer. I’ve always been an active dreamer.

From writing my own plays at the age of 7 years old and performing them in front of my family with the biggest excitement ever. Looking back, I was always passionate about performing those plays in front of hem too. Back then and still today- a switch came on. A switch that turned off shy Essence and turned on Essence the actress. I can’t believe that it took years for me to look back and notice that acting has always been apart of me. It’s amazing what God can do in your life and it’s amazing that he already has everything set up for us. We might not know what’s coming up next but if we did, what’s the point of having faith in God?

Finally, after I changed my major- God had to teach me how to be proud of the journey that he was taking me on. Usually, I would lowly say, “I am a theatre major” whenever people would ask me what major I chose. I would be afraid because many people aren’t very supportive of such a major that doesn’t guarantee jobs. However, I know that this is gonna bring me to pulling a lot of faith out of myself and putting it into God. Many people don’t understand that God brought me here. I also don’t have to explain myself to anybody because this is ME. God’s got me. Many people don’t believe in me but does that even matter? No. As long as I believe in myself, then that’s the only thing that matters. Whew, but let me tell you something! This isn’t an easy route for me. It requires a lot of faith, patience and trust in God. I’ll admit, I do get scared sometimes because honestly, after my next three years of college, I don’t know what I’m gonna do. Then again, it all comes back to trusting and having faith in God. He didn’t put this passion on the inside of me for absolutely no reason and for that, I am blessed. He will never let me down and as a human, we all must encourage ourselves with God’s word.

In addition to my college major story, well, one day in my Journey to Success class at UCA, we all had to go around and tell each other our major. So, everyone started saying their major’s one by one. All I heard was someone either wanting to become a doctor, lawyer, nurse or an OB/GYN. However, once it was my turn to say my major- I turned out to be the only Theatre or shall we say ARTS major in the entire classroom. It was only me. At the end, I was like…”Dang…really?” lol. Many people choose realistic majors but my question for them is, “Will you be happy doing that for the rest of your life?”

I’m sure that many would say, “Yes, because I’ll be making money”. Well, yeah you’ll be making money but money doesn’t bring you happiness all the time. However, I understand their reasons but I feel like the society should encourage students to find their passions. Yet, the world wants you to choose money over passion. With me? I choose passion over money. Let me give you this scripture, okay? Here it is:

ROMANS 8: 28- “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”

No matter what route you take and no matter what happens- God will take care of you. Everything will work our for MY good and YOUR good. We are winners, yo! We won’t lose because he is our Father. Me being his baby girl, I know that he loves me enough to take care of me. No matter what happens. He loves me and guess what? The person whose reading this, well- he loves you too. He always will.

ROMANS 8: 38-39- And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Everything in life God pieces those situations together for us. Our life is already planned out because God already knows what’s gonna happen before it even occurs. Therefore, why worry?

I’m so blessed that God will never leave nor forsake us. He will always be by our side and he’s there during every breath we take. We’re all special in his eyes.

If you leave this blog with nothing at least remember this one thing; God loves you.

Peace and blessings.

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